It's been a while since I've written an article that is not about books or fashion (which I also seldom do nowadays--but soon!). I remember before that I would always ramble about anything, especially about Harry Potter, and even about my dreams, which I have some taken down since it's too blackmail-worthy. I haven't posted anything lately as well since the blessing I have been waiting for almost two years finally came. The long wait and frustration to do something worthwhile is finally over.
Yes, I have been dormant for that long and it was something I was not proud of. I did try to do something about it but it felt like something is always hindering me from pushing through. I felt lonely and frustrated to the point where I was already asking myself what I really want to do with my life; asking what is my real purpose. People my age were moving forward and I feel stuck in a hole where no matter what I do, I could never get out. It was such a dark place. I felt worthless.
But I knew I had to fight. I know myself and I know that I don't give up easily. So I did. The third quarter of this year was full of trial and errors. It was either I will not receive an answer or it is not just meant for me. My mom will always tell me that I was meant for something else and it will come in time. She will always encourage me and tell me that they (my parents) are not pressuring me and I should take my time. But my pride won't let me accept the fact that I should wait for something tangible. Time is such a valuable thing that I was panicking already when I saw that it was already October in my calendar. I cannot afford to be idle for another year. But my family and friends never fail to make me remember that I should not lose hope, always believe and just keep trying.
Like I said before, I was claiming this to be my year, maybe it didn't start as quick as I have expected but at least it still did. This time, I did not pass up on every opportunity that came. I might have not got them all, but at least I tried. I even pursued some that I felt indifferent with, some that was related to my chosen career path but I never imagined myself doing. I have wanted something ever since and I was finally able to do.
Writing. It was something I was so passionate about. It's a start and I am so happy that I could... Now... For work. I am also grateful for this blog because it became a medium to help me do it. It was what helped me to became relevant and in a way, credible. I thank God for finally answering my prayers. I guess I will have to scratch this off my list then. The idea is slowly sinking in and I feel so happily overwhelmed.
So cheers to a new beginning, goals that will be achieved and dreams that will come true.
To spread more positivity and motivation, here are some quotes to share to you guys and words that I will and always be applying to myself.
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Sometimes I think you were made especially for me. ♥
-- Charlie Dunlain, Bergdorf Blondes
Some things just aren't worth the regret.
-- Bergdorf Blondes by Plum Sykes
You are a fabulous girl. Don't settle for anyone who doesn't treat you like the princess you are. No more bullies, no more invalidators, no energy drainers.
-- Dr. Fensler, Bergdorf Blondes
Classic Dysfunctional Relationship: They chip away at you until you feel like you're nothing without them. No one can understand why you stay. But you do. From your end, it's a typical case of low self-esteem.
-- Dr. Fensler, Bergdorf Blondes
We're meant to be unhappy sometimes. That's life. Hearts get broken. Bad things happen. You get through them...
-- Charlie Dunlain, Bergdorf Blondes
You know you've checked into Heartbreak Hotel for real when you feel less desirable than uncooked fish.
-- Bergdorf Blondes by Plum Sykes
The only thing I understand about women is that if you agree with them about everything, then you 'understand' them.
-- Charlie Dunlain, Bergdorf Blondes
If there was no ickiness there wouldn't be any glamour. Well, what I actually mean is, if you were happy all the time, how would you know you were happy? You have to have unhappiness to know what happiness is.
-- Bergdorf Blondes by Plum Sykes
Say what you mean and mean what you say and don't be mean when you say it.
-- George the Hairdresser, Bergdorf Blondes
Fashion should be for everybody.
-- Isobel Saint-Pierre, Fresh Off the Boat
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